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Wednesday, February 4th, 2004
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9:02 pm
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These last 2 days have been weird. I've been in a weird mood. I dunno why. I haven't been talkative, I haven't been like depressed, but I really haven't been happy either. It's weird. I dunno. So I'm not going to states with Solo and Ensemble... I got a 1, but I'm still not going. I have to work tomorrow and I really don't want to. And not just because you know it's work, just past 2 days, I haven't wanted to do anything. Like tonight, I didn't want to go to band! I know, it's shocking, but it's how I feel, and I don't know why. Meghan got her new tenor today! I was excited about that!! I'm so happy for her!! It's all shiny and pwetty (not as pretty as her though, nothing is! ;) Anyways, I dunno even know what to say anymore... other then THREE UPDATES IN A WEEK!!!! heh, ok I'm going now.
current mood:  indescribable
current music: Siciliano and Choral by J.S. Bach
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| Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004
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9:27 pm
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I love Billy Joel. He's so goodly awesome. I don't what was wrong with me today, like, I dunno, I wasn't really depressed or anything, just, not happy. Oh well. I can't wait for the musical. It's gonna be fun. Ok, I have to say something, and I know some people aren't going to care... not like more then one person reads this anyways... but, Erin touched on this today at the drama meeting, I don't think this year drama department is working together. Like, there are cliques. There can't be cliques in drama... drama is one!! But like, for One Act, we didn't get anything done, because people didn't want to work together. I don't like to point people out, but today, when we were waiting for Mrs. West, the people in the drama room were loud, and when somebody came in and told us that, a group of people said "it's not us, it's them, hey shut up over there" or something like that. Drama has to be a whole, we share everything, including blame. Again, I hate to use specific examples, but the gym floor, I never showed up for any rehearsals, and didn't even go to the performance, but I still feel responsible for the floor, I don't place blame on any one person, it's drama's fault, not Sarah's or Matt's or anyone else's. And I think that's why the Crucible almost didn't go over very well, and to be honest, I think we'll face the same problem with the musical. In order for drama to be great, like it was in years past, we can't single people out, we can't break off into cliques, we're a whole... and yeah, I'll be done now.
current mood:  blah
current music: For the longest time - billy joel
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| Sunday, February 1st, 2004
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8:53 pm - uhh... hi
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So, it's been awhile... A very long while... I don't really have anything to say, cause, I just don't. I went to solo and ensemble yesterday, got a 1, woo (I guess). I didn't go to One Act, and to top it off, I don't think I'm gonna go with it to Regionals either. Cause it's on Valentines Day!! and everyone wants off work on Valentines Day!! And of course I request it off last, so they say "sorry" to me and now I have to work 9-4 on Valentines Day. How wonderful. I haven't told anybody that yet. I might be able to get it off, but 90% sure I won't, though. Oh well. At least it's in the morning, so Meghan and I might still be able to do something in the evening. Anywho, I'm gonna go now. Buh-bye everybody.
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| Sunday, August 10th, 2003
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10:39 pm
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Welp, band camp was great, it always is. Yes, it's scary, we are the seniors this year. This is my last year at school, it's going to be exteremly fun. I have 3 freshman, they are good. I got home from camp yesterday at 2:30-3ish and slept till 9 this morning, waking up at 10 last night for like 15 minutes to eat. I worked the festival. Candyland, like usual. Next year, I'll be at it all weekend for the first time, cause there won't be any band camp for me. Even though I'll most likely go up Saturday morning. And for those of you keeping score at home, yesterday was 10 months ^^ Well anyways.. that's pretty much it.
You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
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Your A Fallen Angel...
What Mystical creature are you?
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current mood:  calm
current music: The Beach Boys - Kokomo
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| Tuesday, July 22nd, 2003
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12:33 am
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American girls and American guys will always stand up and salute;
Will always recognize
When we see ol' glory flying,
There's a lot of men dead,
So we can sleep in peace at night when we lay down our head.
My daddy served in the army,
Where he lost his right eye.
But he flew a flag out in our yard 'til the day that he died.
He wanted my mother, my brother, my sister and me
To grow up and live happy in the land of the free.
Now this nation that I love has fallen under attack.
A mighty sucker punch came flying in from somewhere in the back.
Soon as we could see clearly through our big black eye,
Man we lit up your world like the Fourth of July.
Hey Uncle Sam put your name at the top of his list,
And the Statue of Liberty started shaking her fist.
And the eagle will fly,
And there's gonna be Hell,
When you hear Mother Freedom start ringing her bell!
It's gonna feel like the whole wide world is raining down on you...
Brought to you courtesy of the Red, White and Blue!
Oh, Justice will be served and the battle will rage.
This big dog will fight when you rattle his cage
You'll be sorry that you messed with the US of A
'Cuz we'll put a boot in your ass
It's the American way.
Hey Uncle Sam put your name at the top of his list,
And the Statue of Liberty started shaking her fist.
And the eagle will fly,
And there's gonna be Hell,
When you hear Mother Freedom start ringing her bell!
And it'll feel like the whole wide world is raining down on you...
Brought to you courtesy of the Red, White and Blue!
Of the Red, White and Blue..
Of my Red, White and Blue...
current mood: Not much better
current music: Beer for my horses - Toby Keith and Willie Nelson
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| Monday, July 21st, 2003
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11:48 pm
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I HATE people and their f*cking hypocritical views on politics. I hate politics. People complaining that Bush put friends into office?! OF COURSE HE DID!!!!!!!! I wouldn't want complete strangers working for me, would you?! Just because someone doesn't get something their way, they whine and bitch and cry "fraud". Don't talk to me about politics unless it's something intelligent. And by intelligent, I mean something I would think is intelligent. Don't even comment on this if it's some smart-ass remark. I'm not in the mood. I hate narrow-mindedness.
current mood:  infuriated
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| Saturday, July 12th, 2003
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10:44 pm
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This is gonna be a rant about politics... I'm tired of people saying crap about Bush. I really am. And it's not just because I'm alittle on the right. I supported Clinton when he was in office, because he's the freakin PRESIDENT!!!!!!! One of the most powerful person in the world, Commander in Chief of the most powerful military in the world. Just because he has problems speaking in front of BILLIONS of people, doesn't mean he's dumb. I have trouble talking just to my friends, and I'm not stupid. If you think you could do a better job talking, then go on tv, and talk infront of the world, go head, do it and don't stutter or mess up once. And don't say "oh he's just doing everything his dad says" that's a bunch of crap. Every President has advisers, EVERY President has them. And personally, if one of my advisers was a former President, I would listen to them the most, because they would have the most experience of being the President!!! AND THEN people who bitch about the war, we needed to go to war. What would you have us do? Sit around, let Iraq build up their army then invade somebody and have an actual war on our hands? Cause you know that is what was going to happen, chemical weapons or not. The UN wasn't getting anywhere, we gave them 11 years, and nothing, so what was left? Alright, I'm done.
current mood: blah
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| Sunday, July 6th, 2003
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10:32 pm
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Today was ok, I had to work from 10-6 though, but Meghan came over, so it was worth it. Today at work, I "worked the sidewalk" which means all that stuff that we have out in front of ACO, I had to condense it, move stuff from the back and sweep up and yadda yadda yadda, very boring and VERY tiring work. Well, it started out ok, until it got hot, then it was horrible, when I came back inside ACO at 4, you could touch me anywhere and I would be soaking wet (ewwwww). I felt so disgusting and I was so dirty too! Anyways, Meghan and I watched Just Married tonight, and that was a bad movie. It had it's parts, but, it was bad. We are getting our carpets cleaned tomorrow, so that meant tonight we had to clean everything out, but I didn't have to cause Meghan was over O:-) hehe. But yeah, we're rearranging our furniture in our family room... again. For those of you who don't know, we just rearranged it in like the Decemberish area. You know what I just noticed, I listen to a weird arrangement of music. Well, I'm going now, enjoy this while it lasts, 2 updates in a row! Jusqu'à la fois prochaine, bonne nuit tout le monde
current mood: happy
current music: Hole in the World - The Eagles
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| Saturday, July 5th, 2003
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10:21 pm
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wai~! I'm in a surprisingly good mood! even though I worked today 9-4, tomorrow 10-6, monday and tuesday 4-10! And today and tomorrow = extremely boring! long story. Wednesday, I'm going to see Pirates of the Caribbean with Meghan, and Aubrey and Steve, and Jeremy and Jackie (potentially)!! Wow, it's been awhile since I updated, and I don't know why I am now either! I have nothing to say, I have no life besides band and work. I don't even think anybody reads this. Yesterday we lost power for awhile, since like 7 at night till like 10, but I was in my grandma's pool till like 8:30-9 so it didn't matter much. We had fireworks last night, and we had these ones that shot up in the air, Meghan was there! Meghan got me an statuette of an eagle!! It's really pretty :) anywho, I'm gonna go now, so tootles!
current mood:  bouncy
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| Monday, June 2nd, 2003
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8:28 pm
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My computer was all mussed up for awhile, but I fixed it, thanks to Matt. So um, yeah, I know this is kinda dorky, but I can't wait for this to come out in August! >.< So um, yeah, PT is back, woo! I can't get it to run, but I'm tryin something now, hopefully it will work. Ummm... yeah, so today we got our marching music, and we had a low brass sectional, which... was not good... and then I started to teach Kevin and Jay how to play the tuba, and I think they'll get it pretty quickly, once you figure out your mouth, it's just fingerings then. so um yeah, bye now.
current mood:  anxious
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| Monday, May 5th, 2003
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8:30 pm
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Bonjour, tout le monde! Everybody has seen the movie X2 exceptfor me!!! :( And everyone is going to see the Matrix: Reloaded before me, too!! :( I'm gonna be at the band banquet the day it comes out, then I have to work that Friday until 9:30!!! Then the following Saturday until 4 o'clock in the afternoon!!! >:o oh wel, I guess I'll see them whenever :( Anywho, so um, yep, today, I got to go to a boy scout troop for potential rangers and staff for my day camp (insert evil laugh here). Good stuff. And after school we had a sectional, which, no offense to anyone here, was one of our worst sectionals ever, even through marching band season. We didn't get anything done. Yesterday, Meghan and I watched Ghost Ship, and that was a horrible movie, bad bad bad. Oh well, um, I have nothing else to say, except... bonsoir!
current mood:  dorky
current music: No music.... Phil v. Ott, Ottawa up 4-1!
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| Wednesday, April 30th, 2003
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10:13 pm
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I have a song for the one I love. I shouldn't have to say who it is, but I'm going to for people like Jason. This one's for you Meghan :)
If I could win your heart
If you'd let me in your heart
I'd be so happy, baby
Just for these arms to be
Holding you close to me
There's nothing in this world I won't try
No limit to what I'd do to make you mine, 'cause
I'd climb right up to the sky
I'd take down the stars
Just to be in your arms, baby
I'd go and capture the moon
That's what I would do
Just to hear you say that you love me
Just to hear you say that you love me
If I could taste your kiss
There'd be no sweeter gift
Heaven could offer baby
Oh, baby
I want to be the one
I want to be the one
Living to give you love
I'd walk across this world just to be
Close to you 'cause I want you close to me, yeah
I'd climb right up to the sky
I'd take down the stars
Just to be in your arms, baby
I'd go and capture the moon
That's what I would do
Just to hear you say that you love me
Just to hear you say that you love me
For the rest of your life
For the rest of your life
Love me for the rest of all time
Oh baby, baby
Just say the word
And I'll give you my world
There's nothing I won't do
Baby, just to be with you
I'd climb right up to the sky
I'd take down the stars
Just to be in your arms, baby
I'd go and capture the moon
That's what I would do
Just to hear you say that you love me
Just to hear you say that you love me
Just to hear you say that you love me, baby
Just to hear you say that you love me
Oh, I need to hear you say that you love me, baby
Just to hear you say that you love me
Just say you love me
Just say you need me
Just to hear you say that you love me
I'm sorry I didn't get online earlier tonight. I hope you feel better and listen to what I said, it really does help, and it gets easier the more you do it! I love you Meghan!
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| Monday, March 24th, 2003
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9:25 pm
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Soooo.... yeah... it's been awhile... um... prom was this saturday, and I had a great time. I love being with Meghan :) (I know, I know, gag me with a spoon, etc, etc). But anyways, she told me to update, so here I am updating. Right in the middle of me reading up on Sexy Losers, geesh. hehe, I'm just playing Meghan ^.^ I'm on 2 bowling leagues now. 1 on every other Sunday and 1 every Tuesday. The one on every other Sunday is almost over, just 2 bowling nights left. But the one on Tuesday is just starting, 3 months!! I'm so happy! J'adore jouer aux boules! (I love to bowl!) Anywho, I'm going now, so ha. Bonsoir!
current mood:  hot
current music: Stargate - woo!!
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| Saturday, February 1st, 2003
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11:32 pm
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Do you believe in magic in a young girl's heart
How the music can free her, whenever it starts
And it's magic, if the music is groovy
It makes you feel happy like an old-time movie
I'll tell you about the magic, and it'll free your soul
But it's like trying to tell a stranger 'bout rock and roll
If you believe in magic don't bother to choose
If it's jug band music or rhythm and blues
Just go and listen it'll start with a smile
It won't wipe off your face no matter how hard you try
Your feet start tapping and you can't seem to find
How you got there, so just blow your mind
If you believe in magic, come along with me
We'll dance until morning 'til there's just you and me
And maybe, if the music is right
I'll meet you tomorrow, sort of late at night
And we'll go dancing, baby, then you'll see
How the magic's in the music and the music's in me
Yeah, do you believe in magic
Yeah, believe in the magic of a young girl's soul
Believe in the magic of rock and roll
Believe in the magic that can set you free
Ohh, talking 'bout magic
Do you believe like I believe Do you believe in magic
Do you believe like I believe Do you believe, believer
Do you believe like I believe Do you believe in magic
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| Tuesday, January 28th, 2003
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11:09 pm
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ok, I took a personality test and it 2 types tied in the end, and I want to see which one I'm more like, so, please tell me!!! I think I'm more like the first one.
The Rational, Idealistic Type:
Principled, Purposeful, Self-Controlled, and Perfectionistic
(The Obsessive-Compulsive and Depressive Personality Disorders)
Basic Fear: Of being corrupt/evil, defective
Basic Desire: To be good, to have integrity, to be balanced
Enneagram One with a Nine-Wing: "The Idealist"
Enneagram One with a Two-Wing: "The Advocate"
Healthy: Conscientious with strong personal convictions: they have an intense sense of right and wrong, personal religious and moral values. Wish to be rational, reasonable, self-disciplined, mature, moderate in all things. / Extremely principled, always want to be fair, objective, and ethical: truth and justice primary values. Sense of responsibility, personal integrity, and of having a higher purpose often make them teachers and witnesses to the truth. At Their Best: Become extraordinarily wise and discerning. By accepting what is, they become transcendentally realistic, knowing the best action to take in each moment. Humane, inspiring, and hopeful: the truth will be heard.
Average: Dissatisfied with reality, they become high-minded idealists, feeling that it is up to them to improve everything: crusaders, advocates, critics. Into "causes" and explaining to others how things "ought" to be. / Afraid of making a mistake: everything must be consistent with their ideals. Become orderly and well-organized, but impersonal, puritanical, emotionally constricted, rigidly keeping their feelings and impulses in check. Often workaholics — "anal-compulsive," punctual, pedantic, and fastidious. / Highly critical both of self and others: picky, judgmental, perfectionistic. Very opinionated about everything: correcting people and badgering them to "do the right thing"—as they see it. Impatient, never satisfied with anything unless it is done according to their prescriptions. Moralizing, scolding, abrasive, and indignantly angry.
Unhealthy: Can be highly dogmatic, self-righteous, intolerant, and inflexible. Begin dealing in absolutes: they alone know "The Truth." Everyone else is wrong: very severe in judgments, while rationalizing own actions. / Become obsessive about imperfection and the wrong-doing of others, although they may fall into contradictory actions, hypocritically doing the opposite of what they preach. / Become condemnatory toward others, punitive and cruel to rid themselves of "wrong-doers." Severe depressions, nervous breakdowns, and suicide attempts are likely.
Key Motivations: Want to be right, to strive higher and improve everything, to be consistent with their ideals, to justify themselves, to be beyond criticism so as not to be condemned by anyone.
OR
The Busy, Fun-Loving Type:
Spontaneous, Versitle, Acquisitive, and Scattered
(The Manic-Depressive and Histrionic Personality Disorders)
Basic Fear: Of being deprived and in pain
Basic Desire: To be satisfied and content — to have their needs fulfilled
Enneagram Seven with a Six-Wing: "The Entertainer"
Enneagram Seven with an Eight-Wing: "The Realist"
Healthy: Highly responsive, excitable, enthusiastic about sensation and experience. Most extroverted type: stimuli bring immediate responses — they find everything invigorating. Lively, vivacious, eager, spontaneous, resilient, cheerful. / Easily become accomplished achievers, generalists who do many different things well: multi-talented. Practical, productive, usually prolific, cross-fertilizing areas of interest. At Their Best: Assimilate experiences in depth, making them deeply grateful and appreciative for what they have. Become awed by the simple wonders of life: joyous and ecstatic. Intimations of spiritual reality, of the boundless goodness of life.
Average: As restlessness increases, want to have more options and choices available to them. Become adventurous and "worldly wise," but less focused, constantly seeking new things and experiences: the sophisticate, connoisseur, and consumer. Money, variety, keeping up with the latest trends important. / Unable to discriminate what they really need, become hyperactive, unable to say "no" to themselves, throwing self into constant activity. Uninhibited, doing and saying whatever comes to mind: storytelling, flamboyant exaggerations, witty wise-cracking, performing. Fear being bored: in perpetual motion, but do too many things — many ideas but little follow through. / Get into conspicuous consumption and all forms of excess. Self-centered, materialistic, and greedy, never feeling that they have enough. Demanding and pushy, yet unsatisfied and jaded. Addictive, hardened, and insensitive.
Unhealthy: Desperate to quell their anxieties, can be impulsive and infantile: do not know when to stop. Addictions and excess take their toll: debauched, depraved, dissipated escapists, offensive and abusive. / In flight from self, acting out impulses rather than dealing with anxiety or frustrations: go out of control, into erratic mood swings, and compulsive actions (manias). / Finally, their energy and health is completely spent: become claustrophobic and panic-stricken. Often give up on themselves and life: deep depression and despair, self-destructive overdoses, impulsive suicide.
Key Motivations: Want to maintain their freedom and happiness, to avoid missing out on worthwhile experiences, to keep themselves excited and occupied, to avoid and discharge pain.
so? Which one?
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10:44 pm
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Dig if you will the picture
Of you and I engaged in a kiss
The sweat of your body covers me
Can you my darling
Can you picture this?
Dream if you can a courtyard
An ocean of violets in bloom
Animals strike curious poses
They feel the heat
The heat between me and you
How can you just leave me standing?
Alone in a world that's so cold?
Maybe I'm just too demanding
Maybe I'm just like my father too bold
Maybe I'm just like my mother
She's never satisfied
Why do we scream at each other
This is what it sounds like
When doves cry
If you touch if you will my stomach
Feel how it trembles inside
You've got the butterflies all tied up
Don't make me chase you
Even doves have pride
How can you just leave me standing?
Alone in a world that's so cold? (World that's so cold)
Maybe I'm just too demanding (maybe baby)
Maybe I'm just like my father too bold (Just like my father, it's too bold)
Maybe I'm just like my mother (Maybe I'm just like my mother)
She's never satisfied (She's never satisfied)
Why do we scream at each other (why)
This is what it sounds like
When doves cry
Don't cry, Don't cry, Don't cry, Don't cry, Don't cry, Don't cry, Don't cry
No no, no, no, no, no, no
Don't cry
This is what it sounds like
When doves cry
Ahhhh...
Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create
a dream come true
So, they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold and starlight
in your eyes of blue
That is why all the boys in town
Follow you all around
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you
Ahhh...Close to you.
Ahhh...Close to you.
Ahhh...Close to you.
current mood: melancholy
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| Sunday, January 12th, 2003
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| Thursday, January 9th, 2003
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| Monday, December 30th, 2002
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11:21 pm
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God I love this game! Icewind Dale. I need to pass out cds so we can all play. 6 people. It's great. So anyways yeah, just thought I'd say that. So tootles.
current mood: amused
current music: Billy Joel - Uptown Girl
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